Jumat, 02 April 2010
End of March 2010
Just realized that this is my last week at my 29 years, next week I’ll be turning 30 (wooow, old ).
Many had achieved but lots more had been forgotten or failed.
Many friends has chosen their own ways, some still struggling, view of the are staying the same.
last week i found 3 grey hairs on my head…got bit scared bot well maybe it’s the age thing.
Found out many people that I know from facebook with their successful life and family, but I’m still alone soaking my agony and drowning into my own philosophy of life, that is being a person who think before act.
Found out that i had yet many friends.
Found out that a had a view friends are worse than being cast away in a remote island.
found out that for the past three months had attended more than 18 wedding but haven’t made one yet for my self.
found out that all of my brothers and sister are growing and getting mature, which are good for them but i miss their cute and cuddly age, where they used to love to be hug/ kiss or carried around on my back. now all of that precious time slowly gone.
found out that my mom is no longer strong, i can see that her hair turning grey, her sight no longer focus.
Found out that when she tries to call me, she will call up all her children names then my name.
30 years old, when i was 20 I had huge dream about what I’m going to be and have and get when I’m 30. but that’s 10 years ago.
Found out that I wasted 10 years of my life just searching for a name for my self. wondering who I am and what’s my position in this life.
yet understand what I am, who I am …
but Hey …. 30 is not the end.
30 is a start ….
30 is a man’s first day to show to the world that I could managed to be a person who stay out of trouble
doesn’t deal with drugs or even sell them.
I have a nice job, i have my own car, my own house, have a pretty, generous, and smart girl friend.
The next thing that I will do is, make sure my next 10 years will be great.
pursue what I’ve always wanted, to be useful for lots of people.
Many had achieved but lots more had been forgotten or failed.
Many friends has chosen their own ways, some still struggling, view of the are staying the same.
last week i found 3 grey hairs on my head…got bit scared bot well maybe it’s the age thing.
Found out many people that I know from facebook with their successful life and family, but I’m still alone soaking my agony and drowning into my own philosophy of life, that is being a person who think before act.
Found out that i had yet many friends.
Found out that a had a view friends are worse than being cast away in a remote island.
found out that for the past three months had attended more than 18 wedding but haven’t made one yet for my self.
found out that all of my brothers and sister are growing and getting mature, which are good for them but i miss their cute and cuddly age, where they used to love to be hug/ kiss or carried around on my back. now all of that precious time slowly gone.
found out that my mom is no longer strong, i can see that her hair turning grey, her sight no longer focus.
Found out that when she tries to call me, she will call up all her children names then my name.
30 years old, when i was 20 I had huge dream about what I’m going to be and have and get when I’m 30. but that’s 10 years ago.
Found out that I wasted 10 years of my life just searching for a name for my self. wondering who I am and what’s my position in this life.
yet understand what I am, who I am …
but Hey …. 30 is not the end.
30 is a start ….
30 is a man’s first day to show to the world that I could managed to be a person who stay out of trouble
doesn’t deal with drugs or even sell them.
I have a nice job, i have my own car, my own house, have a pretty, generous, and smart girl friend.
The next thing that I will do is, make sure my next 10 years will be great.
pursue what I’ve always wanted, to be useful for lots of people.


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